bad situation

For 1 and a half month,I have been depressed so much.
Because,my boyfriend's job doesn't go well.
He is busy, and the days when he doesn't pay attention to me, continue.

Frankly speaking,I am disgustin!!!
I am already not able to bear it!!!!!!
I seem to go mad!!!!!!!

I intend to understand that he is busy, and he has anxiety.
But,I am lonely.
I miss him.

I don't know that I have to do for him.

I can't understand whether I am necessary for him.

I want to defeat this bad situation.
It is slightly early!